Opposite version.

If i could be anyone else in this world, i would be the opposite version of myself. I want to be the one who do not care about every people. Yep, i do care at every people. Its not wrong to care for people it is actually very generous of you but when it comes to too care and hurt yourself, that is not good. The ones who you really care about, doesnt even give a single glance to you and you dont even cross his/her mind at all. Why should i care about you? Well, that describes perfectly how pathetic i am.  

Then i want to be the version of myself who loves myself more. I care for people but i realize that i didnt give too much attention to myself. Tak salah kalau kita slightly pentingkan kebahagiaan diri sendiri.

i want to be the one who have a fixed feelings. I changes feelings a lot. It is worst when it comes to love. The second i love someone, the next second i changed my feelings towards someone else. I am as fast react as flourine in the halogen group. I love people who loves me at the first place haha. Then i mixed my feelings. Tahniah la aini, youve just broke millions of hearts in this world. That is why i think i dont deserve to have a boyfriend that in the end, i will hurt him too much to mix feels. 

I'll try to bare that in my mind. And try to change myself to be better in the next year, 2016. 

Sum up, that is why i hate myself. 

Love, sofea. 

P/s, sorry i am too lazy to update my blog